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I truly hope that you will enjoy reading my blog. I hope to keep you all entertained. It may take a little while, but soon, you will know everything about me, past, present and future. Feel free to ask anything. Please be respectful, though. Thank you all very much for reading!!!
I would like to tell you, after having my last child, I weigh 220 lbs. That was my weight coming out of the hospital and up until a week ago, it was still my weight. My son is now 15 months old and that is just not acceptable for me to still be the same size. So, I went to a few walking classes at my church and really enjoyed them. I eventually went out and bought 2 of the DVD's to have at my house. The lady that makes the DVD is named Leslie Sansone.Biography:Leslie Sansone She has a wonderful attitude that MAKES you just wanna get up and get going. She is very perky and very encouraging. The first DVD that I bought came with a little devotional book. I really love it. It gives me guidance in my workouts, and at the same time I can get spiritual guidance. It is a wonderful idea! The first one is called Walking the Walk, 2-MILE FAITH WALK. Walking the Walk Getting Fit with Faith I did that one first, it is easy and low impact. I used this one for a week, and in that first week, I lost 5 lbs! Can you believe it?? I thought that was awesome. So, I got down to 215. That is a great first step. I am currently on my second week. For the first day or so, I only did the new DVD that I had just recently bought. It is a bit harder, gets you moving a bit faster and it adds the elastic band for strength training as well. The name of that one is Walk Slim, FAST & FIRM! 4 Really Big Miles. Leslie Sansone, Walk Slim It definitely gets you moving! After the first few days, I am doing BOTH videos. So I get a total of 6 MILES in per day!!!! I don't have time to sit around and sulk, being all depressed because I'm overweight and there is nothing I can do about it. I get up and get moving!!!! I have even noticed that now, I do little moves throughout the day from the video, and surely that can only help. I am very anxious to see how many pounds I will shed this week!! I don't have a scale, so I'm not sure so far what I weigh, but I can only be loosing, this I know for sure. In the devotional book, she gives you 3 little things to ask yourself daily. It really helps on changing your attitude towards life in general. I want to be a better person, have better thoughts, and make better decisions, and I am on my way to doing that!!! By getting FIT WITH FAITH!!!!!!!
Here are some some links to check out her videos and other stuff! I hope you get as much out of her as I am. Walk at Home videos Good Info Meal a day 10 day challenge Her 4 fast miles Walking part 1 start quick and easy
I just finished reading Breaking Dawn last night. I thought that it would take me FOREVER to get through that book. It started off great. I was totally into it. Then it slowed down a bit, and I got bored with it. Towards the end though, I couldn't put it down!!!! It was a great book! I'm not sure which was better, Eclipse, or Breaking Dawn. They come very close in ranking to me. I like how it ended. If Stephanie Meyer decided to add onto the books, I think she ended it so that she could. I am not sure of how she could continue on, but I do think it would be possible. I read yesterday on Yahoo! that she was supposed to be coming out with another book, something from Eclipse, like a spin off, from another characters point of view. Here is the link for that article: http://movies.yahoo.com/feature/movie-talk-stephenie-meyers-new-twilight-book.html Hope you find it as exciting as I did!!!!
Another long day. I tried to take a nap, since I'm sick. I probably only slept for like 10 minutes then I got woke up. I didn't even get to do my exercise today. I am excited that I have lost 5 whole pounds!!! I promise to get on and let you know the rest of my life story, it just may be a few days...
First of all, I was adopted to a wonderful loving family who could not have children, they are all I have ever known. They got me when I was 3 days old, after they got me they had 2 more kids, my sisters! They gave us everything that we needed and mostly wanted. They always told me that we could be open and honest with each other, but ever time that I would, it would get turned around on me, used against me. So I stopped the open, honest thing. Things between us would just get worse and worse. I didn't share with them, so they didn't trust me. They would snoop through all of my things all the time. I was fairly young the first time that I recall them doing this. I came home after being out with my uncle all day, and my mama had just up and decided to paint my room. All my stuff was gathered in the room and she found some letters or something with "bad words" in them. I got in trouble. They continued to snoop, and of course, all kids do things they shouldn't, they found other stuff. When I was in middle school, they didn't like any of my friends, so I wasn't really allowed to go anywhere. They didn't trust them or me because they didn't know the families they were from. I got really tired of it, so obviously I rebelled. I started smoking pot when I was in high school, with my first real boyfriend. I loved smoking, but of course my parents found some... and I got in trouble about that. They didn't like my boyfriend much. After being together for about a year and a half I found out that I was pregnant. At the time, I was only 16. They would try to turn it around on my boyfriend when they would see him out with my friends and I was stuck home, but they forbid him to see me, what was he supposed to do? So, shortly after I found out I was pregnant, I lost the baby. Then my parents pretty much freaked out on me. They put me in a hospital claiming I was depressed, pulled me out of school for a while and made me go to a school that did like therapy with the school lessons. After a short time they did lighten up a bit, but I still had to go to a counselor every so often. I did finish high school, even thought I got into quite a bit of trouble here and there, but hey who doesn't right? After high school, I decided to take a year off from school. After a month or so, I even quit my job. I started hanging around with people that weren't looking out for my best interest. I smoked pot and partied like most others do at that age. When I was 19 I was arrested for selling pot. May I just say that I was NOT selling it though. I had never been in trouble like that with the law and haven't since. From what I was told, it was like a technicality. Like I went and bought the weed from someone FOR someone, so I was the one charged with the actual sell. I really don't know, like I said, not much trouble with the law like that. So, I got a bogus charge, $10 of weed for me=3 years drug offender probation. So for 3 years I had ALOT of things that I had to be sure got done, alot of money to pay, and community service to do, and on top of it, I had to be home by 6pm EVERY night unless I was working. My mom finally fessed up and told me herself that she spoke to the judge and told him to give me that curfew. That made me think that they had a hand in my being in trouble too, but I can't prove it, and it's in the past. They thought that I was doing a whole lot of things I really wasn't. They thought I was in deeper than I really was. I was in a bad direction, some kids shot my car cause they thought I had something to do with their money being stolen, which I didn't, and stuff like that, but I really wasn't into the stuff they thought that I was. So, I did my 3 years of probation, meanwhile, turning into an alcoholic. I would say for about 5 years straight I drank EVERY day. No lie. Sad but true. Not that I was addicted to drinking, like that, I just didn't have any motivation to do something besides drink. I was so happy to be off my probation that I just started partying hard like all the time. I had a job that I worked in the evenings, so when I got off it was just perfect timing to hit the club. I got pretty bad off. I was always chasing the next high. I really never was addicted, like I said before, I enjoyed it, and just had no motivation to stop. The way I saw it, I was only affecting myself. It was my life, and it shouldn't matter to anyone else what I did. After a year or so more of my ridiculous partying, and another miscarriage, I met this guy. Something just drew me to him. It didn't help much he would sit up at my work for my whole shift! I ended up moving in with him really quick like, I'm talking weeks. He ended up being the best man ever! We are now married!! We have 2 beautiful children together. If I wouldn't have met him, and had kids, I don't know where I would be today. Possibly dead. The life I had before, sometimes, I'm not going to lie, I do miss it. The freedom of not having to worry about everything, cuz it was just me, that was great. The partying, I LOVED it. It was my life. I was a professional partier, if there is such a thing. But, I wouldn't change my life now for the world! When I really started falling for him, he really stepped in and told me how much better I was than what I was doing. So eventually I stopped all the drinking and all the drugs. Mostly, it was because I found out I was pregnant. I would NEVER drink or party being pregnant. I do NOT agree with that at all. It has been over 3 years and I haven't drank or done drugs since. Just put them down, like that. I finally had my motivation! So, we had a daughter. She is beautiful! Right before she was born, I'm talking days, we got married. My husband is from Mexico. His parents sent him here illegally when he was 16. So, we started working on getting him to a legal status, that way he could find himself a better job. We started the paperwork in June 2007. We sent papers back and forth for a while. The next year, we found out that I was pregnant with our second child! Shortly after that, we get a letter in the mail saying he had his visa appt down in Mexico. So, he left in August of 2008. They denied him his visa and sent him to a waiver appt. He had to wait for 2 months to go to that one. So, in November 2008, he went to that appt. They told him that we didn't give them enough information, we had 30 days to get it together, or we have to start all over again. So here I am like 7 months pregnant and they won't let my husband come home to me. The following January, our son was born. My dad went back with me for my c-section (my mom has a weak tummy) and my husband only got to talk with me on the phone. Forever it seemed like he got to see his son only via webcam. It was very sad. For me and for him. It was a very depressing time in my life. But God knew what He was doing. Through the time that my husband was gone, I got closer to God. I know that He had His reasons for us to be separated like we were. I finally got the call from my lawyer in November 2009 letting me know that my husbands papers were FINALLY APPROVED! That Thanksgiving my whole family was just so happy and excited. We truly had something to be thankful for. Our family was together, legally and we didn't have that rain cloud over our heads anymore. Since then, life goes on as normal. Ups and downs like everyone else. That take us up to the here and now, which my blog will continue on as........Hope you enjoy and if there are any questions, please, feel free to ask away!
It was gorgeous this morning. Now it is storming like crazy. I love when it rains, but the thunder kinda scares me. It never used to bother me before. I think now days I am scared of everything. LOL When I get the chance, I plan on sitting down and typing up a short version of my life up until this part, since this is me, changed. I want everyone to see what you can actually go through, and still live and come out on top. Just because you may have royally messed up does not mean that your life is over. You CAN start fresh and new, and I am living proof of that. Maybe it's not ALL fresh and new, but for the most part it is. My story has tons of getting in trouble in school, with the law, to partying and being stupid, everything you can see in the movies, that has been my life. I am not afraid to share this, even the things that will make me look like a horrible person, because I know that I am not that. I may have made wrong choices, but I have not ever been a bad person. I have always cared about others, and wanted to help someone out. I have always tried to good, treat ppl how I would like to be treated myself. I have just had a crazy life in the process. But as I said before, it won't be in this post, and I may have to split it up a bit, being as I have young kids, I can't always sit down for long periods of time. So, you have that to look forward to. :)
Finished my walk, now I'm about to do a workout video. Checked on that little room that I was going to possibly be finding open, it would have contained information on my adoption. Just my luck tho, it was locked. Another dead end. I will NOT give up tho. Next stop, the court house. Hopefully, I will be able to find something out there.
I am up and at em this beautiful morning. About to go for a great morning walk!! Trying to walk off them pounds, lol!! The kids have been fighting all morning long. They did the same thing yesterday. It sucks!! We got some blankets and bags we have been waiting for, they came from Mexico. We are going to sell them, hopefully. So far, no one wants any of them. Oh well, they are so beautiful, eventually someone will want one. I think this day is going to go by so slowly. Still no word from the girl that is supposed to be getting back to me about my birth family. I suppose all will be revealed when the time is right.
Well, the kids are laying down for their naps. I did my exercise routine, we had lunch, and now I think that I am about to go through my Avon order. This day is going by slower than I actually thought that it would. I am still waiting for that email about my birth mom. IDK if I will be getting it today or not. She said it could be tomorrow too. I wish I knew other ways to locate her. Right now, it doesn't seem impossible, I have some ppl willing to help out, it just seems like it will take some time. Well, maybe something exciting will happen in a little bit, if it does, I'll be back to tell you about it!
Had a pretty good night of sleep last night, I suppose. My daughter woke me up too early this morning. Late last night I had a chat with a lady that has known me for like ever.. I think that she wants to help me search for my birth mom. Maybe she knows something that she can't exactly say, but kinda wants to show me somehow. IDK I'm not quite sure what is going on with that right now. I suppose that only time will tell. I was doing the dishes this morning and got a phone call, now I am babysitting 2 other kids for a friend. So much for my other plans for today. I guess I will be home all day now. Or at least until 5. Well that is about all I have to say for right about now. I will be back on later!
I am 27, married to a wonderful man, and we have 2 beautiful children together. I stay at home now, with the kids. Love every minute of it. My kids are wonderful. I have been through a long hard haul to get to where I am now. My past is filled with tons of skeletons that alot of ppl know about, and some ppl don't. I was adopted, and maybe I have struggled with that for a long time and haven't really realized it. I am currently searching for some answers out there. Answers that can lead me to where I came from. I really just wanted to give you a little insight to who I am for starters. I will get back to you later, and you will find out what my life is as of now!!!