The stress

I haven't had much to say lately.  So stressed over the situation on finding my birth mother.  I know ppl that know the answers, but yet, they do not wish to share that with me.  They come up to me starting the conversations, basically telling me that they know.  Then when I ask them to specify information, they just stop.

Wow, life is just crazy sometimes.

It's so crazy.  I may have located my birth mom.  What is so strange, if it is her, I have known some of the family my whole life and had no clue!  I'm waiting on that phone call to see if the dates and stuff match up.  It's going to be a very long wait, I can already tell, but I am sure it will be worth the wait.  All of you that read my blog, please keep me in your mind and prayers, this will be a life changing experience!

I never have enough time!

No matter what I do or when I do it, it always seems like there is more to do than the time that I have.  It is starting to drive me insane!  I thought that when I quit working that I would have more time to get the stuff done that I needed to, without rushing around, or being late doing it.  Boy was I wrong!  It seems like to me that I have less time than ever to get stuff done.  I got to get up, feed the kids, clean up the mess, get them dressed, get myself dressed, make sure hubby has all he needs to go to work.  Then I gotta clean the house, wash the clothes, IRON the clothes, which I hate doing might I add......  Make sure the bills get paid.  When hubby gets his break or is off work for the night, of course he has to get some attention, that most of the time I don't even have the energy or desire for.  All the while, I have 2 screaming kids that do not want me to do any of it!  When can I get a break???  When can I have my time alone?  No one can understand this, unless they are a mother.  Whether they stay at home OR work, either way, there never is enough time.  Ya know, when I was working, it seemed like I did get a little more done, but the price to pay was the time with my kids.  I rushed them off to the sitters, then on lunch I could pay bills or run home and clean what I needed to clean, then when we got home in the evening, I would feed them, bath them, then put them to bed, BUT where was OUR time together?  We never had any.  So I do NOT regret quitting my job, even tho, now it seems I have less time than before.  I guess these are the prices you have to pay for motherhood!  :-)

This day is about over.

Sorry I don't have much exciting to tell you today.  The day is about over and all we have done so far is gone to the beach.  I suppose I could to a bit of gossip to add some drama to this, but, honestly, that's just not me.  I want you all to read this cause you are interested in what I have to say, not who I have to talk about.  Sorry for that.  So, that being said, I'm off to get the kids fed, washed and tucked in!

On Monday.

I am tireder than ever!!  We had a great family day yesterday, but I think it took way too much energy out of me!  I am currently recovering!

Our trip, later that day.

Well, the trip wasn't all that great.  But at least we got to spend the day together as a family!!  As far as that goes, today was totally awesome!  I do have to say, the falls were peaceful.  I wouldn't mind spending the day there with just the hubby or when the kids are older, but 1 and 3 year olds were a little much.  LOL!  Neither got their naps in so that made them fussy.  Then, my daughter was insisting on swimming with the alligators!  I mean, I could NOT convince her that that was a BAD idea!  That dang Dora the Explorer!  She supposedly said that the gators just smile at you.  She shouldn't false educate!!  LOL!  Oh well.  So we ahve decided to spend the night at a motel so my posts will have to continue tomorrow cuz texting it is just a bit much!  Have a great night!

 

Our trip

On our way to the State Park!  A day of family fun in the sun!  I just can't wait to have a wonderful day of relaxation.  Just wish my allergies weren't so bad right now!